The Best I Ever Had
I'm here reminiscing on past events in my life. I remember everything. The good, the bad and the ugly. I remember every detail, every hug. Oh I loved it when you hugged me, with the fresh fragrance of your perfume filling up my nostrils and accentuating my mood. I loved the softness of your chest hardly pressed against mine. A lot of comfort drifted into my soul from those divine moments and even as I replay it in my head, pressing pause, rewind and play so that the images would flick back and forth, I can almost feel that softness on my chest.
I told you you had the best smile on the planet, well, that was a fact. Before you came into my life and after you left, I mean years after, i'm yet to come across that smile. I know it when I see it.... so disarming and charming. Then the dimples in the centre of your chicks would make your face blend into a glow, like the morning bloom of a sunflower. That was my sunshine that you took away, leaving me to grope in the dimness of the moonlight.
And that voice....that warm voice that melts my heart. That sweet sonorous voice that makes life seem so simple and uncomplicated. It was that voice that helped me in year two/second semester. I had missed both test and practical of a 3-unit course. I was one of those courses that made me dread school and curse the guy that invented it, whoever he is. I totally sucked at it and I was sure I would carry it over, and that added to my low grades meant I would have to delete some courses the next session, and that could lead to an extra. Then you came armed with your voice and hug.
You told me I would make it. You told me to believe in myself. And when I was still in doubt, you held me in your warm embrace. Right there in under the tree opposite the female hostel, our favourite love-spot, my fears got shattered and I did ace that course. I went on to graduate without an extra year.
Everything was so perfect and life was beautiful. We used to look forward to each others' calls and every time we met was pure bliss. You had found your dream man in me. Without you I was like rice without stew....
* * *
[3:02am]
*phone rings*
Me: hello love..
Her: *stiffles tears*
Me: baby...hello! Are you there? Hello....
Her: baby i'm sorry...
Me: C'mon dear, what are you talking about? Sorry about what..
Her: *bursts into tears*
Me: Baby did somebody hurt you?
Her: Nooo, not that. I just dont know how say it...i didn't know i'd fall in love with you. Everything happened so fast dear, so fast..
Me: ok, whatever it is i'm listening baby... go on..
Her: oh i'm gonna miss you.. baby, i'm leaving the country by morning, I mean this morning. Dad just came home with all my papers and had booked my flight for this morning. I'm goin' to the states to study..
Me: buu-buh...
Her: I know, I know. I know I should have told you but I felt like a betrayer, like I was betraying our love..
Me: * crying*
Her: baby are you crying...please dont cry 'cause i've crying all night...sweetheart please dont make me start again.... * bursts into tears*
* * *
That was the storm that tore everything apart. At that point that fateful night, I could almost visualise the whirlwind, see the lightening and hear the thunder. It struck so hard my heart skipped a beat. Why didn't you tell me baby, why? How could you do that to me? You left and the geographical was larger than we could help. I couldn't come to you to say goodbye. The industrial strike made certain that everybody travelled back home, and we lived in two distant states.
I remember your driver came immediately to whisk you away to your wealthy, over-protective dad. We made a promise to continue from where we had stopped....oh, I didn't get my last smile. I couldn't get my last hug. And most painful it that I didn't get my first......kiss. That was where we would have continued our 2-week love affair if you hadn't left. We thought we had saved the best for later, but we had actually saved it for never.
We both cried over the phone that day you boarded your flight and we promised to keep the fire burning as much as we could, but that proved to be hard. It wore off. The distance was too great and you were never coming back home to me. We reached a compromise and moved on.
You moved on baby but I couldn't. I haven't. Didn't they say after the storm comes the rainbow, because i'm still gazing at the sky in search of my rainbow. When I eventually do, I know I would remind of you and everything we shared. Fours have passed, and I want you to know you're the best I ever had.
I told you you had the best smile on the planet, well, that was a fact. Before you came into my life and after you left, I mean years after, i'm yet to come across that smile. I know it when I see it.... so disarming and charming. Then the dimples in the centre of your chicks would make your face blend into a glow, like the morning bloom of a sunflower. That was my sunshine that you took away, leaving me to grope in the dimness of the moonlight.
And that voice....that warm voice that melts my heart. That sweet sonorous voice that makes life seem so simple and uncomplicated. It was that voice that helped me in year two/second semester. I had missed both test and practical of a 3-unit course. I was one of those courses that made me dread school and curse the guy that invented it, whoever he is. I totally sucked at it and I was sure I would carry it over, and that added to my low grades meant I would have to delete some courses the next session, and that could lead to an extra. Then you came armed with your voice and hug.
You told me I would make it. You told me to believe in myself. And when I was still in doubt, you held me in your warm embrace. Right there in under the tree opposite the female hostel, our favourite love-spot, my fears got shattered and I did ace that course. I went on to graduate without an extra year.
Everything was so perfect and life was beautiful. We used to look forward to each others' calls and every time we met was pure bliss. You had found your dream man in me. Without you I was like rice without stew....
* * *
[3:02am]
*phone rings*
Me: hello love..
Her: *stiffles tears*
Me: baby...hello! Are you there? Hello....
Her: baby i'm sorry...
Me: C'mon dear, what are you talking about? Sorry about what..
Her: *bursts into tears*
Me: Baby did somebody hurt you?
Her: Nooo, not that. I just dont know how say it...i didn't know i'd fall in love with you. Everything happened so fast dear, so fast..
Me: ok, whatever it is i'm listening baby... go on..
Her: oh i'm gonna miss you.. baby, i'm leaving the country by morning, I mean this morning. Dad just came home with all my papers and had booked my flight for this morning. I'm goin' to the states to study..
Me: buu-buh...
Her: I know, I know. I know I should have told you but I felt like a betrayer, like I was betraying our love..
Me: * crying*
Her: baby are you crying...please dont cry 'cause i've crying all night...sweetheart please dont make me start again.... * bursts into tears*
* * *
That was the storm that tore everything apart. At that point that fateful night, I could almost visualise the whirlwind, see the lightening and hear the thunder. It struck so hard my heart skipped a beat. Why didn't you tell me baby, why? How could you do that to me? You left and the geographical was larger than we could help. I couldn't come to you to say goodbye. The industrial strike made certain that everybody travelled back home, and we lived in two distant states.
I remember your driver came immediately to whisk you away to your wealthy, over-protective dad. We made a promise to continue from where we had stopped....oh, I didn't get my last smile. I couldn't get my last hug. And most painful it that I didn't get my first......kiss. That was where we would have continued our 2-week love affair if you hadn't left. We thought we had saved the best for later, but we had actually saved it for never.
We both cried over the phone that day you boarded your flight and we promised to keep the fire burning as much as we could, but that proved to be hard. It wore off. The distance was too great and you were never coming back home to me. We reached a compromise and moved on.
You moved on baby but I couldn't. I haven't. Didn't they say after the storm comes the rainbow, because i'm still gazing at the sky in search of my rainbow. When I eventually do, I know I would remind of you and everything we shared. Fours have passed, and I want you to know you're the best I ever had.
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